I am lucky to have had a better experience with religion than most queer people. I have seen the way that religion has genuinely brightened people’s lives. Unfortunately, I can’t entirely relate. Hellfire Dreamer is a musical depiction and response to my biggest OCD compulsion; saying the Lord’s Prayer twice or more times every night before falling asleep. The piece contains musical quotes from “Lady of the Harbor,” a tune by Brother Sun that I revolved this compulsion around for nearly a decade.

Performed by Andrea Gilebarto and The Society For New Music